hmmm inside my head

well well erm where to start ok here goes nothing i am not where i wanted to be in life manly because i have messed up in my life alot and not really done the right things that would be good for me like for example i really should have gotten more work done in school and got grades i needed to do the things that i want and dreamed  of doin but no1 is to blame but me and i wud love to change that about myself just one issue with that is my confidence in myself i dont have any what so ever i am constantly trying to please other people and i dunno why i do this why do i have to have everyone like me for its gotten me nowhere every time i  get close to someone i do something wrong or they turn out to be a crazy its like why even bother trying to find happiness but if i be honest with myself why wud people wonna be with me when my life is empty and theres nothing goin for me they wud be stuck in some rut so to speak i do need to sort myself out but when theres no backing from ppl i just dont seem to bother as i really dont know how to please myself as all i eva seem to do is please others when will i learn that to please others i must first please myself but then that means people might get mad at me as im seen as a person that u can come to but some times thats way to much pressure but dont get me wrong i enjoy helping people  but some times it gets me nowhere. so theres my first blog enjoy reading leave comments and follow if u want if not well im not fussed haha goodbye and this is the life of me