the days are getting better the problems are fading and the happiness is starting to come and why cuz the women i have loved for years now knows that i do i feel so much better telling her. we have been talking and we are gonna start hanging out again and see where it goes and i cant wait :)
had a night out with some friends was a great night but surprise my m8 i have been mates with for years was are first time out at a pub it was like how the hell did we not go out sooner but was a fantastic we had some great fun got really drunk has been good
football has been great still not scored for the team but i will never quit trying to also played in the park with some friends was a gd catch up with them as i had not seen some of them in a while i have been getting closer to some people and they are very nice and kind caring and i feel blessed having them in my life and look forward to a long friendship with them :)
had a good day 2day things are finally coming together got a few jobs to apply for and then there's my football playing in a 5-a-side at myton we have lost are first few games but we are new team and not played as a team before but on the plus side i have stayed injury free and for me thats amazing so my body must be healing and i like that fact as it has been years since ive played and not been injured so its really good for me and im hoping so badly to get the coaching course and run my own team will be a dream come true as one day i wud love to manage a premier league team and win the league and many other trophy's so to future danny if u havnt done this then what happened man you should have chased the dream if you had a gd reason then fair play but if u didnt then letdown unless you became rich then ure forgiven haha and if u have found the love of ure life then thats brill and if its who u love atm woo we did it man :P
well well erm where to start ok here goes nothing i am not where i wanted to be in life manly because i have messed up in my life alot and not really done the right things that would be good for me like for example i really should have gotten more work done in school and got grades i needed to do the things that i want and dreamed of doin but no1 is to blame but me and i wud love to change that about myself just one issue with that is my confidence in myself i dont have any what so ever i am constantly trying to please other people and i dunno why i do this why do i have to have everyone like me for its gotten me nowhere every time i get close to someone i do something wrong or they turn out to be a crazy its like why even bother trying to find happiness but if i be honest with myself why wud people wonna be with me when my life is empty and theres nothing goin for me they wud be stuck in some rut so to speak i do need to sort myself out but when theres no backing from ppl i just dont seem to bother as i really dont know how to please myself as all i eva seem to do is please others when will i learn that to please others i must first please myself but then that means people might get mad at me as im seen as a person that u can come to but some times thats way to much pressure but dont get me wrong i enjoy helping people but some times it gets me nowhere. so theres my first blog enjoy reading leave comments and follow if u want if not well im not fussed haha goodbye and this is the life of me
